An emotion that I wish I could control is crying, but I can’t. I cry when I am joyful, disappointed, and devastated. Yeah, from one extreme to the other, I have a cry inside waiting to erupt. In crying, my heart becomes vulnerable, cleansing my thought, and positioning me for change. Crying is therapeutic because instead of going overboard, it helps me to release. The problem with that is I don’t like to cry, and it’s not always good to approach me when I cry.

My joyful cry usually comes with a look of admiration, satisfaction, a smile, or any combination of the above mentioned. It’s easy to determine that my heart is in awe and in a safe place. So, approaching me may get you a conversation, a fist bump, a hug, or a smile.

The disappointed cry is a little different. I am rolling the situation around in my mind. I need to make sure that I clearly grasp what has taken place. Deciding whether I caused the disappointment or someone else did. Am I prepared for the disappointment, or do I need to retreat to a quiet place and get a hold of myself? I may talk to those close to me or may not, because I am careful about whom I speak around. Sometimes my words come from a raw, thoughtless, and uncensored place.

But then there’s the devastated cry. It comes when blindsided by life. Something detrimental has happened. It’s a life-changing decision. Absolutely no contact or input from outside sources allowed. I may stay home or go to a secluded location. I take a moment to lie in bed for 1 to 3 days while I struggle with the decision and then get up and deal with life.

So why am I telling you this? Maybe you can relate. Maybe it’s information about how to treat your disappointed and devastated cry. Or perhaps I wanted to share with you.

Sincerely,

Healing